Struggling with ana

Im sorry to hear that 😕 I guess the root of it would be what does it do for you to focus on those aspects?. A sense of control, appeases self image?.

It's not a girls only illness, even if society stigmatises the male expression of it or plain ignores it. You deserve support from those around you and I'd recommend therapy as someone who's been in therapy throughout my life.

Don't hate yourself or go it alone bud

Differently not a girl's only illness. I hope you get help from some. My partner and I go to an eat disorder support group once a week and I also get therapy.

In college, all the guys were told to meet for free pizza, drinks and a movie in the residence hall.

Everyone on campus showed.

A lady walked in an introduced herself.
Then announced she had an urgent message about male anorexia.

She explained
it was as big a problem with men, as with affected females.
But twice as deadly because of the male stigma.
Her son nearly died of it and exercised/dieted non stop.

While the promise of pizza and drinks was a rouse to get us there; the talk was sobering, and saved some lives.

I hope you get professional help ASAP. You can do this. You're not alone nor seeking attention. Neither are you less of a man.

You're just another human being in need.....like all of us here

God bless friend.

Sick enough? I don't understand. I've never thought there was an amount of sickness you needed to be at before seeking help.