Struggling with ana

I have had anorexia for years now, I've recovered once and now I've relapsed two months ago, loosing over 20kg in that time. I feel miserable and so incredibly lonely not only because this disorder makes me push everyone away, loose interested in the things I love but also being a guy makes me feel like a weirdo, like I'm just seeking attention or something since it's apparently a girls-only illness. It has completely consumed me, I don't think about anything else but food, calories, weight, exercise.

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Mordechai · 31-35, M

Im sorry to hear that 😕 I guess the root of it would be what does it do for you to focus on those aspects?. A sense of control, appeases self image?.

It's not a girls only illness, even if society stigmatises the male expression of it or plain ignores it. You deserve support from those around you and I'd recommend therapy as someone who's been in therapy throughout my life.

Don't hate yourself or go it alone bud