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Better without me.

At some point in having fun, I always have to realize, I'm still alone. I'm still the weird one. My words are too strong and yet I am not enough. Others only want me for entertainment value and the depths I think I'm reaching is really just the door people have pushed me through. The care I think I'm capable of is just an annoyance and people have real lives that actually matter to them.

I have no healthy balance when it comes to socializing. I don't deserve friends because PTSD has afforded too many issues that make me unstable and unsuitable.

My version of connection must make others sick.

I do care. I do want to be here for the ones I care about. But I'm just words on a screen. That's not what this place means to me, but my perception is skewed because of my solitude.

It's only good until the persona wears down and I'm just a pain in the neck. That's my cycle. Loving people, making them smile, then when I can't, when I'm exhausted, when it gets real for me, I have to go away.

And everyone is better off without me.
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Madmonk · M
You say what I’m thinking. I’ve said this to myself all day. We are up and down people. Do what you feel you must. We all do. There are people out here who value you and who you are as a person
TheShanachie · 61-69, M
Don’t go away, I find your reflective personality type charming and look forward to your posts.
AllycatAD · 26-30
Some on here might miss me
others won't
most don't know I even exist


in the end yes, I would miss you, I hope you find balance in your life.
I missed you when you were gone.
And I remember having a big smile when I realized who MarbleMarvel was.
I care and want you here. Hope you never doubt that 🖤
SwampFlower · 31-35, F
If you need a break, take it. But I don’t want you to go away. 🫂
Captainjackass · 31-35, M
Totally wrong. We’re all better off for you being here!
JimboSaturn · 56-60, M
I completely disagree.
bookerdana · M
I saw this on EP just before it closed


It seems a common sentiment,which is sad😞
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