why cant i be normal?

why do i do everything wrong, im never enough, im never gonna be what my mom wants me to be, im not straight, why cant i be straight? why cant i like basic normal stuff so my mom wouldn’t hate me? why?? why can’t i be extroverted to be cool and have friends and go to parties like a normal teenager? why cant i be pretty like every single other girl? why cant i be happy? i hate myself, i hate how i look how i act and how people see me… sometimes i wish i was dead, everything would be better without me, i just want to be normal, to be loved, to be me… why cant i just like a sport or just makeup? why can’t i be whiter and have straight hair like my mom? why im i so ugly and pathetic and god im just a big loser and now that im going to another school its worse, i wish i wasn’t alive, why cant i just be normal????? why cant i like normal stuff like everyone else??? why doe y mom think im depressing? why??????????

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Iwantyourhotwife · 22-25

Your mom is the problem. Her not appreciating you is intentional. She is failing and you feel like it is your fault because like many moms she is probably a master manipulator playing with your innocent heart. She is not to be trusted

No. Mother doesn't always know best. And, sometimes, mother is not even your mother. There is no love sometimes

You are not depressing or a failure or any less of a person. Neither are you ugly but I fear you hear her words more than you hear mine. So take this to heart and know that we're human and humans know a bad message when they see it. You need to break free of this mental oppressiom and low self esteem and it starts by first getting past the test of blindly following your parents. You have to learn to tell yourself better and good. The messages you have been receiving have been AWFUL and WRONG

You'll be okay. You're okay. You matter. You don't need to be extraverted. People are only extraverted when they feel comfortable with who they are. Otherwise, when you're stuck battling these ill thoughts and you haven't won yet, then you'll be out in public unable to live without remembering these messages

I know the struggle and you have to learn to be big enough and to stand up on your own