I’m deeply afraid of rejection

I’ve been rejected 9 times and it hurts. One time that I’m counting is is being rejected by a girl’s friend when we were in High School. Weird thing about both of those girls is we had lunch at the same table most of that same year.

I’m also a little scared that my stalker ex will kill me and or my girlfriend when I overcome my fear of rejection and rejection itself. It’s not crazy as you might think, her family has history overreacting like that.