I finally feel relaxed
After we ate dinner, cleaned up and got the kids settled I told Joel I really needed to release.
Star and my buddy sat with the kids and we went to our room.
I've been holding back alot of tics the past few days and I needed to let it go.
I don't like getting to this point. It hurts everything. My whole body hurts from holding them back but there are times I have no choice. I always want to have him with me because when I get to that point I really don't have much control over what I say or do. I need him there to make sure I don't hurt myself. I can't make myself have one but when I just relax and stop holding my tics in it does happen. It's not the preferred way to deal with this but it's the only thing I can do right now. But it feels so much better after it happens. I don't really know how to explain it.
But I was able to get to that point and I feel so much better. My body hurts but that pressure inside is finally calm.
My neurologist would not approve of this either.
It took me a bit to regroup but after that we joined the kids and watched the Royals win and enjoyed the cherry chocolate pizza.
After they went to bed we had a cigar and a little tequila. Now I'm waiting for my sleeping pills to kick in.
Star and my buddy sat with the kids and we went to our room.
I've been holding back alot of tics the past few days and I needed to let it go.
I don't like getting to this point. It hurts everything. My whole body hurts from holding them back but there are times I have no choice. I always want to have him with me because when I get to that point I really don't have much control over what I say or do. I need him there to make sure I don't hurt myself. I can't make myself have one but when I just relax and stop holding my tics in it does happen. It's not the preferred way to deal with this but it's the only thing I can do right now. But it feels so much better after it happens. I don't really know how to explain it.
But I was able to get to that point and I feel so much better. My body hurts but that pressure inside is finally calm.
My neurologist would not approve of this either.
It took me a bit to regroup but after that we joined the kids and watched the Royals win and enjoyed the cherry chocolate pizza.
After they went to bed we had a cigar and a little tequila. Now I'm waiting for my sleeping pills to kick in.
