Kinda a fight

I guess I wouldn't call it a fight but he was annoyed with me this morning.

Before he left for work he asked

Hey why do you always make sure the kids and I have there sensory bags, iPad, extra clothes snacks drinks before we go out but you don't bring one thing to help yourself. I could be wrong but I think maybe if you wore sunglasses in the hospital, or if you had air pods on to listen to music to help calm you down your tics wouldn't of been so bad. Maybe you need a sensory bag.

He really didn't give me time to answer.
He said Just think about it, I love you, I'll see you in a few hours.

But he's right. I just never thought of that before.

So today to help prepare for house hunting I have my air pods in my pocket and I took half a anxiety pill.

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Coralmist · 41-45, F

Yes imagine you are the car that run the kids to doctor or school or , anyone else who needs something. But if you, as the car , has a tank on E, how are you going to help the kids or anyone? (Including yourself)? I'm trying to learn this too because some like us believe we don't deserve basic human needs.

But would we say to any other fallible human we know, You don't deserve food, you don't deserve love etc, for little minor things?? I'd never think that about anyone .yet our minds were DISTORTED from abuse, now believing just WE don't deserve basic things. I think when we can see the distortion is when we can start to change things.

Cigarguy101 · 41-45, M

@Coralmist I know I hear this a lot, like I said though I get so hyper focused on making sure everyone else has what they need I forget about what I need.