My worst fear
Tonight started out as any normal Wed night. The boys have volleyball practice. We had dinner and as we were getting ready to leave and my daughter goes to swoop out her air pods. She has two sets one for school and one for home. Her set from school had almost no battery life yet. As she went to get her home set she realized they were unplugged. Her brother's iPod was plugged in. He most of unplugged hers before school. So both sets were dead. I told her it was fine Joel or I would stay home with her if she didn't want to go. She said she'd be okay and she wanted to go. I got on to her brother and told him to never do that again. He apologized to her and said he lost his charger. My tiny tornado.
Anyway we get to practice. We always sit off by ourselves not near other family so I figured it wouldn't be loud for my daughter. I don't want to upset anyone with my tics and outbursts. We always sit near the exit so I can get out of the gym if I need to.
Things seem great, than I notice it. My daughter did a mouth popping sound and a quick head tilt. It happened again a few minutes later by the 4th time I feel Joel grab my hand. The 6th time it happened his grip tightened. By the 8th time we couldn't take our eyes off her.
Our youngest made a great play and my daughter cheers for her brother. I guess she was surprised by our silence.
Did you see that dad, papa
Yeah I did.
Joel didn't speak
Stop being weird you guys. Pay attention
She did the same movement a few more times before partice was over. It scared me and him.
We go home and have a fire outside. We bring the TV out and we watch the Royals game. She sits in her beanbag chair, she has her blanket, her book and her air pods in. The boys are playing with their toys and cheering on the royals. She likes to listen to the game over the radio instead with her air pods instead of watching it. The royals blew the game I think but I didn't watch the game I watched her, so did Joel. She didn't do that movement again the rest of the night. We clean up and get everyone ready for bed.
We go out for our smoke and drink. We sit in silence. I know if I try and say something I'll break down.
Joel takes my hand. No matter what we got this.
I can only nod
My sweet baby girl was so much going against her already, being on the spectrum, dealing with her sensory disorder, odc. I've noticed it a few times in the last few months but not like this. I always thought she was over stimulated. It can't be that. She's to old. I don't know what to do. I started having tics when I was 6 years old. This can't be happening. Not to my baby girl.
My biggest fear might be coming true.
Anyway we get to practice. We always sit off by ourselves not near other family so I figured it wouldn't be loud for my daughter. I don't want to upset anyone with my tics and outbursts. We always sit near the exit so I can get out of the gym if I need to.
Things seem great, than I notice it. My daughter did a mouth popping sound and a quick head tilt. It happened again a few minutes later by the 4th time I feel Joel grab my hand. The 6th time it happened his grip tightened. By the 8th time we couldn't take our eyes off her.
Our youngest made a great play and my daughter cheers for her brother. I guess she was surprised by our silence.
Did you see that dad, papa
Yeah I did.
Joel didn't speak
Stop being weird you guys. Pay attention
She did the same movement a few more times before partice was over. It scared me and him.
We go home and have a fire outside. We bring the TV out and we watch the Royals game. She sits in her beanbag chair, she has her blanket, her book and her air pods in. The boys are playing with their toys and cheering on the royals. She likes to listen to the game over the radio instead with her air pods instead of watching it. The royals blew the game I think but I didn't watch the game I watched her, so did Joel. She didn't do that movement again the rest of the night. We clean up and get everyone ready for bed.
We go out for our smoke and drink. We sit in silence. I know if I try and say something I'll break down.
Joel takes my hand. No matter what we got this.
I can only nod
My sweet baby girl was so much going against her already, being on the spectrum, dealing with her sensory disorder, odc. I've noticed it a few times in the last few months but not like this. I always thought she was over stimulated. It can't be that. She's to old. I don't know what to do. I started having tics when I was 6 years old. This can't be happening. Not to my baby girl.
My biggest fear might be coming true.
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