I Have Ptsd

Another Panic Attack (written 7/5/16 11:31pm)

I felt it coming up again...
All of my emotions at once.
Racing from the pit of my stomach,
Rushing up to through the canal of my throat.

The traffic is so heavy, I can hardly breathe, and weighty pressure forms...
It's happening again.

I can feel my heart palpitating inside my chest.
Pounding.
It's getting faster.

The tightness in my body rushes to the tips of my fingers, as I make a ball with my fist.
I begin to take deep, unhurried, breaths.
It's the only thing that helps.

Again, I breathe in and out.
Slowly.
I can feel the cool air flowing in,
And the warm air traveling out.

I'm still angry, but somehow better.
I keep breathing.
In and out.

My heartbeat slows down in time.
My mind is cleared.

The breaths become deeper.
I focus on the sound.
Soon, I'm focusing on nothing else.

A weight is lifted.
My jaw loosens.
My fists unclench.

I keep listening to the sound of my breath.
Nothing else matters.
The anger is fading.

I am at peace.