Is it just me

But does anyone else freak out when you go pick up your medicine from the store and you get home and the bottle says they normally stuff and you open it to look at the pills and they are a different size, shape and color. I've taken this pill for a year and it's always been a pink almost egg shaped pill and today it's a small yellow round pill.

Yes nope I am not okay with this.

I hate my OCD so much. The issue will be tomorrow when I try and take it and my mind won't let me. I'll freak out, think 1000 horrible reasons why I can't take it and I'll have to call Joel and he'll try and talk me down. He'll end up leaving work and there is still no guarantee I'll take the pill tomorrow.

Oh Lord I'm freaking out already