Does anyone have any advice on how to overcome Hell themed OCD/Anxiety?
For context, I'm not a religious person, but I do 100% believe in a God/higher power and an afterlife of some sort, most definitely.
Also, I cannot afford therapy right now, so any advice would be appreciated.
I find myself in constant fear of an eternal Hell, to the point where my brain cannot let it go, even when I try to distract myself by talking to family, playing games, going shopping, etc. The fear does not leave me, I never have peace of mind and I've been feeling like this for months.
Now I know what happens after death is unknown and no one knows for sure, and I used to be content with that. I was always comfortable with death and nonchalant about it. Even going as far as to say that I didn't fear death at all. (And damn, do I miss that feeling!) Because there was no evidence of hell.
That was until I've read things about Hellish NDEs. Now, I know there are Christians out there who fabricate some of these stories to get people to convert out of fear, but I've read about them on reddit, without the person having an agenda, they were just sharing their experience. And I know that the person can usually get out of it and that they usually turn positive, but those people weren't fully dead. Who knows what happens when they don't come back.
I've even read scarier things on reddit, about hellish deathbed visions, where people see demons and the devil and complain that they're burning and have a terrified look in their eyes. These scare me more than the NDEs and only tells me that there's evidence of a Hell and that I should live in fear.
I want to believe that these are hallucinations, but it's hard to, especially when I believe that the positive ones are real and that people's passed loved ones do come get them when they're on their death bed.
So, has anyone else dealt with this theme of OCD and if so, how did you overcome it? I hate feeling and living like this. I just want to be comfortable with the unknown again and have my peace of mind back.
Also, I cannot afford therapy right now, so any advice would be appreciated.
I find myself in constant fear of an eternal Hell, to the point where my brain cannot let it go, even when I try to distract myself by talking to family, playing games, going shopping, etc. The fear does not leave me, I never have peace of mind and I've been feeling like this for months.
Now I know what happens after death is unknown and no one knows for sure, and I used to be content with that. I was always comfortable with death and nonchalant about it. Even going as far as to say that I didn't fear death at all. (And damn, do I miss that feeling!) Because there was no evidence of hell.
That was until I've read things about Hellish NDEs. Now, I know there are Christians out there who fabricate some of these stories to get people to convert out of fear, but I've read about them on reddit, without the person having an agenda, they were just sharing their experience. And I know that the person can usually get out of it and that they usually turn positive, but those people weren't fully dead. Who knows what happens when they don't come back.
I've even read scarier things on reddit, about hellish deathbed visions, where people see demons and the devil and complain that they're burning and have a terrified look in their eyes. These scare me more than the NDEs and only tells me that there's evidence of a Hell and that I should live in fear.
I want to believe that these are hallucinations, but it's hard to, especially when I believe that the positive ones are real and that people's passed loved ones do come get them when they're on their death bed.
So, has anyone else dealt with this theme of OCD and if so, how did you overcome it? I hate feeling and living like this. I just want to be comfortable with the unknown again and have my peace of mind back.
31-35, F
