How I'm feeling

I'm not sure there's actually much of a reason to talk about this, but I'm feeling down. Not a full-blown depressive episode, just kind of not great. Lonely maybe? I've been talking to her today, but most of it has felt like small talk which isn't something I enjoy. I enjoy talking to her, just hot how limited it all feels. I'm not sure if this is a symptom of boredom though. I wish she was here with me and we could like hold hands and stuff, really. I'm not even truly sure if I'm actually struggling or if the weather is just setting things off in my head.