This may just be my depression and anxiety rearing its ugly head (or the fact I am currently watching "What the Health"), but...does anyone else get a

feeling of existential dread..even from a "productive", "happy" thing like cleaning and organization?

For me, seeing all the stuff I have wasted money on over time, the entropy of it all..right in my face..how much of my life force I have gifted to companies who care not a toss for me..How much SCHTUFF I thoughttt would make me happy, but didn't, the advertising lies I believed...

Idk..it has made me far more of a minimalist, I tell you what. I told someone yesterday..I was tempted to burn it all down and walk away with all I can fit into a small (Marc Jacobs tho, bc why sacrifice style) backpack. Sadly, I am someone who requires climate control and plumbing....

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CrazyMusicLover · 31-35

I'm the opposite. I am so used to things I already have that I find it hard to throw away them and hate buying the new ones unless they seem perfect right off the bat because I fear I will be disappointed with the quality and regret spending my money on them. I really hate buying something only to find out that it's inconvenient and it'll annoy me until I either toss it away or finally get used to it.

foldedunfolding · 41-45, F

@CrazyMusicLover oh no, that is what i mean! i bought all the items that i now want to toss

Justcurious86 · 36-40, M

I think that’s why a lot of hoarders never thow their stuff away because of the shame and depression they get when face with it. It’s good that you know for yourself and can deal with it

foldedunfolding · 41-45, F

@Justcurious86 yeah for sure..it is a vicious cycle..i can so relate! thank you for the encouragement!!

PowerofStories · 61-69, M

I sometimes feel that way. But then I remind myself that I don't have a time machine to go back and un-spend the wasted time and money. So best to put my attention to the things I can control in the present and not beat myself up for the things I did before.

And the idea of burning everything down and putting it all in a backpack (a stylish one no less) has some appeal to me. Now where did I put those matches?

Domking · 61-69, M

Hey, c'mon, get down from the guilty chair and come, stand tall and smiling with us weirdos.
Heck, most of us have squandered away lots of valuables, even bigger stuff Than money. For me, it's about a couple of decades of my Life, including big money, on addiction. Got out of it, and living free, happy, joyous and free. So, stop blaming & judging yourself.
Have a good day,
Love you

Dolimyte · 41-45, M

Buying stuff is a terrible way to find lasting joy, unless you buy a Hitachi.

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