I think too much

I'm just wondering, am I the only person who had their depression actually get worse after seeking treatment? I found therapy and medication degrading and symbolic of a failure on a personal level that took me from being depressed with suicidal thoughts to the actual act of attempting suicide. Therapy and medication were proof that I have failed in life.

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BrokenAbyss

I don’t think it means you failed at life. You can fail at things out of your control though and it affects you the same.

I quit therapy and meds awhile ago and just started facing everything. All my feelings, I grieved, I went out and lived an adventure of sorts. I roughed it. That helped.

Because when I came back into “normal “ life again, I realized I can’t be that person that keeps fighting for optimism. Maybe I’m a little dark. But by facing myself I found so much beauty in the darkness.

It’s okay that stuff didn’t work for you. It works for some. I don’t know your story but I think I can relate to feeling unfixable. Because I don’t really think it’s me that’s broken.

istillhaveanameitsrick · 56-60, M

@BrokenAbyss The therapist I used to see was not impressed when I told him that I thought most "mentally ill" people were actually quite sane. I think most are extremely rational people attempting to deal with a completely irrational world.

BrokenAbyss

@istillhaveanameitsrick Yup. It’s about money at this point. And they can’t steer from their education because that’s their only credibility. Doesn’t make them good to talk to. The past few I tried never stopped talking. Precisely what I didn’t need. And I’m supposed to going insane?

I’m with you. I’m just finding my own ugly way. Fuck it.

DearAmbellina2113 · 41-45, F

Therapy really helped me. I just needed someone to vent to without them judging me, or arguing, or rolling their eyes. I really needed that.

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