Do you experience apathy?
I use to think I did before but this time its different. Before I think it was more or less brought on by depression. Thinking I'm just scum that doesn't deserve anything special but lately I don't feel that. Apathetic towards women, towards finding a companion. Apathetic to find work or furthering my career. Even to my hobbies. It's a really strange feeling and I don't like it. It feels hollow for lack of a better word, like I am just existing but not living. I don't feel depressed anymore, in fact I've been making strides to fight that. Sure there are still things that get me down or anxious, sure there are still things I don't like about myself. Is this just another form of depression or the result therein? What the hell is this madness?