I Battle Depression and Anxiety

I've struggled with depression and anxiety for years, and it has gradually gotten worse over time. I've had moments in my life where I fought with suicidal thoughts, but those too have worsened. It's not unusual for me to have these thoughts daily, or even multiple times a day. I've made it this far, so that in itself is something. But lately, it almost seems more I can bear. The almost coerced compulsion to end my relentless suffering immediately compounded with overwhelming periods of intense grief are becoming all too frequent. I don't know how much longer I can maintain control, and that alone is terrifying.

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Aster302516

I’m sorry about what you’re going through and I really hope you find someone you can trust and share your feelings with. I know a lot of people who have found it helpful to speak with a counselor. Do you think you can get in touch with one? It may help in dealing with your fears and anxiety. I don’t know if you believe in God, but I believe He loves and accepts you completely and unconditionally. I hope you don’t give up, friend. Hang in there!

DarkestDespair · 46-50, M

I've tried counseling and I think it does help a little, but it's only temporary for me. Also, I realize that you are trying to be helpful and compassionate with your religious outreach, and I appreciate your concern.