I Battle Depression

Every now and then I think I am fine when reality hits me and I am reminded how horrible my life is, and how miserable I feel and am. I feel like no one will really understand, I told people in my family and they don't even understand. I don't even have to compare my life anymore, I just automatically know my life is shit and worthless.

I have to live with my sister, the person who verbally, physically, and emotionally abused me when I was a younger through my teens. And my mother expects me to live with another person like that, everyday I feel like I am trapped and suffering. I also have to live with her boyfriend that I want out causes hes here and does nothing besides wait for my sister all day while shes at work. The only thing my mom can say is it's the past, my mother dosent understand anything let alone how depression and suicide works.

Long story short I feel as though nothing good can and will happen to me, I always think maybe something good will come, but it never does... Thanks for reading