I Fight Depression and Loneliness Everyday

I used to think I could deny it and fake myself into happiness but I can't anymore. I've been through doctor's, I've been through there useless drugs. I wake up, get bitched at. Go to work, get bitched at. Come home to get bitched at. Yet I never show how upset I am. I'm always nice, too ******* nice. I don't think I can despise people more than I do now. Life aint worth it if you have no one to slog through it with, and god ******* knows I'm alone. He's known for years yet I can't keep a girl to save my ******* life. Wake up, get my daily dose of "your not good enough," say one thing wrong to the 40th girl, want to cry but all I can do is get angrier, smoke just to get more upset. That's my life. I'm tired..so very tired

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Safareh

Let's run away to the jungles of Tanzania together; where the only bitching we'll receive is from lions -- but they won't bitch at us because they will love us and we will be there friends.

I am currently being trained by National Geographic to become a lion whisperer, as soon as I receive my certification I shall embark on wards to the jungles of the world.

Goodbye stupid world.

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Safareh

I prefer the wild to civilization too. It's so much more simpler and appreciative and delicate.

Hahahaha you can eat the lions if they attack us. I don't think my stomach would be able to handle the greatness of beauty that the lion possesses.

MildlyMagiclessMinotaur · 26-30, M

Right? Honestly though I'd want to eat them anyway, I could substitute though, I just need meat. Steak is more beautiful xD

Safareh

I would rather befriend the bears and use their help to find berries and such.

But there are no bears in the jungle. :'(

LOL we'll import some cows so you can eat steak.

Stargasm

Who's doing all this bitching at you?

MildlyMagiclessMinotaur · 26-30, M

Lol, anyone. Mostly my parents that expect the world..I just can't fucking deliver. And when it's at work it's my fucking useless ass co-workers. Even though I'm doing a perfectly fine job and they should mind there own fucking shit. They all mad cause they all got PHD's in fast food

Stargasm

Lol then that's their own problem. As a parent with two kids and different perspectives, id say, depending on their comments, there's a reason behind it. Look behind it their words about what it is.
And they taught you, I get frustrated when my kid doesn't simply bring something back to the kitchen as I
Use to, but hell, did I teach him that when he was a toddler? Nope.. That's on me. Hopefully as myself he'll 'shape up' -my room was a wreck growing up- not anymore-

MildlyMagiclessMinotaur · 26-30, M

I know the reason. They've been trying to beat me into a good person from day one. All well and good, I needed it. But I'm fucking sick of it now. They are under the impression I'm still young and stupid and need direction and life lessons. They will never understand how wrong they are. I wised up at 16.

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