I Battle Depression and Anxiety

@DanielChristensen you're right. I've been on this crazy journey ever since I was 14. everyone thought it was just hormones but it made sense that I have a mental illness, specially because of my bad childhood.
the worst parts of the whole thing are the depression and anger. I Get so blinded by anger sometimes.

@dilvin The periods of reduced lucidity and overwhelming emotion causes outbursts, which leaves us with a lot of shame, apologizing to people that do not understand, and most often, do not care to understand. It is common for people like us to isolate, which is what I have done. Am quite lonely, but I feel like it's better.

@DanielChristensen it's exactly how I am :( I sometimes spend 50% of my time being a jerk and the other half apoligising and being embarrassed. it's really draining.

@dilvin I understand. Try not to be too hard on yourself. Everyone has challenges in their life. I hope you won't end up alone like me.

@DanielChristensen I am also bi-polar. You don't have to be alone. I am not saying that it is easy to cope, and I struggle a great deal, but I have found people who love and accept me for who I am. Feel free to contact me if you ever need to talk.

@SW-User ❤ Thank you :)

@DanielChristensen I have it too, and it's exactly the same, I hate this fucking disease

@SW-User It took me years just to admit that I had it. It runs very strongly in my family, and I always thought it was normal. I mean, who doesn't randomly decide to tear up all of the carpet in the house one day and then cry for a week?

@SW-User I thought everyone was the same way too, but that they somehow managed to cope with it better. I didn't know what "bipolar" was, and I didn't recognize myself in the dried-out, jargon-filled DSM description. My family doesn't talk about anything so I didn't know that my grandmother had it. I wasn't diagnosed until I was 35 after a suicide attempt. To be honest, I was relieved that it finally had a name, and I was blown away by other people's firsthand accounts. It was like they were talking about my life, and all these things that I never thought to connect together finally made sense. I kind of had a double standard, too: it's not crazy when I do it. I didn't realize just how messed up some of the things I had been thinking and doing really were until I saw it written out by someone else.