I Have Bipolar Disorder And I Hate My Life

sometimes i'm happy sometimes i cant even move it gets so confusing for everyone and no one knows how to help me. i dont even know how to help me. sometimes i wonder why i turned out like this why i do the things i do and say the things i say. i avoid people when i'm in a bad mood but the thing is sometimes it doesnt stop for days. its hard to be who you want to be when you already know who you are going to be forever.