I feel disgusting

I feel like a girl that has never mentally grown up into a woman and can't accept what this body does. I just feel endless repulsion. I could never really relate to guys but I think I experienced first hand what it's like to be what they call "sexually visual type" and the desire to dominate (not in the BDSM sense, just in the sense to be a top, not bottom). Ever since I can't go back and be the object of such desires. No matter how hypocritical it is, I can't stand the idea that when men sexually think about me it's the same way how I think about some (more effeminate) men. It's a major fuck-up because I am feminine, I like looking feminine but I absolutely hate what it means sexually and what's the natural purpose of it. In a sense, I have no use for it. I attract the wrong kind of attention, wrong kinds of men.

The in-betweens.
It is frustrating and confusing for those that try to know you.

I get this. Being comfortable with both parts of yourself can also mean feeling like you don't fit anywhere.

Honestly, all the non binary stuff sounded like nonsense to me at first, but the more I read about it the more I just realized, uncomfortably, that it was describing how I'd always felt.

And I feel just the opposite of you

Give me a try. I'll talk to ya

Femboy