Time for next mental health awareness post. I have seperate identities personality disorder. What would you like to know about this condition?

@SW-User It's ok! It's ok to find humor in our struggles, it's how I survive!

I think one of the children can say things in a funny way, she threads lightly and laugh easily.

Sometimes it's humorous how extremely rebellious one of the teens are. For example when I see that even my boyfriend's number is blocked along with all other friends. She get these impulses to push everyone away and it's so extreme sometimes that it seems comic 😆

@CountScrofula I didn't. I thought it was common PTSD symptoms since the only thing I knew about DID was Jim Carrey playing a character with that disorder and that was Hollywood extreme stereotype version of it. And I couldn't relate to him at all so I rejected that thought completely.

It wasn't until I started my latest therapy that it was exposed. My therapist exposed it. And after that I started researching it more and suddenly things made sense.

I told my sisters and both weren't even suprised. They both had noticed something was off with me and especially my big sister told me she saw me become a child around her child. She didn't wanna make me uncomfortable so she never said anything but she has suspected my disorder for many years so appearantly I've had it since I was a kid.

@Queendragonfly Things are going okay with managing your health now?

@CountScrofula Thanks for asking 🩶

It can always improve. I've been without therapy for three years and that has been very tough. I've done what I can, read self help books, seeked support and advice from others with my struggles, had emotional support from people in my life etc. Distracted and kept myself occupied with hobbies.

Now I'm finally getting to start therapy again after a long wait. So I'm excited. It's very difficult to be in all this without a professional. And there's a lot of things that can be dangerous to approach without professional guidance so it all have had to kinda stay on hold and it's been a tough ride.

I look forward to profesional support.

@calicuz They front as it's called, as in they are impersonated in my body language and voice and they remember different things and they have a certain role in the "system"

Most of the time it happens automatically whenever something is a trigger or I'm struggling. Then the "switch" happens.

I'm not always aware of it. I don't even remember it happening so it's my surroundings that have noticed this.

@Queendragonfly I'm sorry about your childhood, that's awful and no child should go through that.

I'm not too clued up about DID, thank you informing me. I mostly know about my own disorder, bipolar (my brother is) and BPD. I believe the latter also is environmentally at least caused by severe trauma and abuse. And, I know about NPD and ASPD having had the misfortune of seeing someone with it wreck the like of someone with suspected BPD.

It sounds like you've had a lot of struggles, but what I think is inspiring is that you seem to cope well and, while you're new to the site, you come across as a really kind person.

I'm happy you're on our little niche forum 🤗

@basilfawlty89 Thank you for these warm beautiful words. ❤️❤️❤️
So little can impact me so much. 🥹

I'm sorry for all you have went through too I know a little about BPD, it's a really difficult disorder. ❤️

You are a very kind person ❤️

@caccoon Through therapy. However to protect the alters from uneccesary exposure I said I don't need the DID diagnosis in my journals, and my therapist understood and made an exception and classified it as trauma symptoms connected to my CPTSD (in one way that's true) and never exposed my alters more than just mentioning that I struggle with fragments and different parts of me. It's a vauge description but still medical enough to be accurate.

@LordShadowfire I know this can happen with the disorder. People can watch a character in a show and absorb it to the point that it becomes one of their identities.

I don't know if that has ever happened to me though. Not what I can recall.

@Graylight Enough. You can't decide if a person is invalidated or not. That alone is invalidating.

This post isn't about judging me or deciding my disorder. Who do you think you are? Are you my doctor? If not, then sincerely, shut it.

Feel free to discuss the DID disorder and criterias and science and share links etc etc in your own post for anyone interested in the general discussion about the disorder.

This post is about trusting me and my experiences and let me share them and teach people how DID can be like for someone. It's personal.

If you can't respect that, I will disengage.