mental state

@Gusman My past has more hurtful memories than sweet ones. There is one thing that gives me a break from it all, but that was taken from me. The only thing that keeps me going right now is the promise for a better future, because nothing in my life right now makes me happy.

@jrcervin But there were sweet memories. Can you revisit the good ones?
You can at least try.
The thing that gave you a break from the heartache was taken away, that was one thing.
Try the other stuff that was not painful for you?

@Gusman I try, I really do.

@jrcervin If your sadness/depression lasts more than a week at a time then please see your Doctor.
There are medications that do work. They slow the mind down and give you a rest from the constant torment.
Please at least think about it. Maybe ring a help line for advice.
I went through yearts of depression and saw my Doctor. Eventually I was able to put aside the negativity and am free from it now.

@Gusman Thank you so much for your care, I don't come here that often, so I sometimes answer late. Fortunately it's temporarily, it happens 1-2 times a month, and sometimes it get hard to move past it. I did see a profesional once. I felt OK after it but noticed one thing, people that went in and put looked like they had a lot more on their plate, and the list is quite long, so I prefer for them to get the help. I for now can still manage myself.