Is there any way you feel you're not a part of the human race?

Multiple ways. Always felt as a kid I was "different from". Can't really explain it but I just never felt comfortable around others a lot of the time.

I like rugby not football, not into golf, most of my musical tastes are away from the mainstream (ie prog, folk, jazz, etc).

Today I'm far more comfortable just being me not trying to fit in etc and I accept who I am. It's OK being me.

Nope, my body is constantly telling me I'm human! Or at least an animal. I guess it is my higher brain functions that remind me I am a human animal.

As for dating and relationships, I have never experienced those. Of course hormones and loneliness made me want them, yet dating seemed annoying. Just lounging on the couch would be fine. But travel, museums, and dining sound fun. Yet I can do that on my own, LOL!

I never wanted kids so there was no pressure there.

As I have aged, my hormones have collapsed, and my mental state has stabilized as I grew wiser, wealthier, and more independent. Some companionship would be nice, but people can be annoying, too. I might still want my own space. I certainly do not need nagging.

It used to cause depression but I let all that go, accepted my singleness, and focused on learning and relaxing. Finishing my career, and then being free, except for all the goods and services I need from others. But they respond well to credit cards!

Good luck on your journey. You are nice. I hope you find love and friendship.

Yes; That is the nature of Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. One of my dx of over 20 years ago.
I woke up with so much pain (physical pain) I want to lash out(read: SCREAM!!!/cry) or just self harm.

I am sorry it is so rough for you, I do understand. You are worthy of kindness and love 🤗🌻

I tend to feel human, but I do have a sense of separation from the majority. I can relate to watching and not feeling worthy. For me it’s just relationships in general. One thing I know is that the feeling of unworthiness is a rubbish game our head plays with us that perpetuates the issue. I’m glad you’re continuing to try to overcome that. 🤗

I've felt that way since grade 3, just different from everyone else in my "social sphere". Those akin would be known as Isolationists, people who lucked out in circumstances, and can do without what is normal for humans in general.

I feel the same about marriage. No man actually wants me long term to make me their wife. And I think it’s because I’m too mentally ill. Sometimes I even feel like my mom is paying my boyfriend to stay and not leave me and the kids like all the other men have done.

This is actually so sad to read because you're not undeserving of love, at all. Don't give up on yourself

I wish you the best.

in one way I feel like it.

I don't care about owning stuff. It doesn't seem worth the effort.

(((((HUGS))))) My own gender issues kept me from seeking relationships with women until my late 20's, I was always afraid of rejection.

🫂♥