Do you get emotional fatigue...

Yes. It is my normal state and there’s nothing I can do about it except go through one day at a time. I wish I could do more for my own well being, but my son comes first and we have nobody else.

I have come to realize I am 24/7, all around depleted and driven too often by that deprivation. If a day goes to shit, I just press on and try again the next.

I pace myself. Have to. It’s way too much when I think about it all and it gives me horrible anxiety. I just use small milestones, because small steps equal big changes over time. It’s my new method.

"I get up, I get down, I get up, I get down..." Close to the Edge, Yes.
The song is a search for meaning and balance in life. I just find those words echo human experience so perfectly (ok not as potent without the music) and I find accepting this rhythm helps me to be kind to myself.
Be kind to yourself.
I learnt to live in my zone, that place where I am balanced like I'm sitting by the river and my perspective is most complete. I feel I don't stay there, I get up, I get down... but when I'm flat I don't make big decisions. I don't send messages or react to people. I don't judge my life when I'm down. I just recognise I'm tired, worn thin and my perspective is distorted through my flattened emotions. I recognise it and know what I need is to get through this. Then when I'm centred I choose, I act. This is the place from which I live.

I am emotionally fatigue because I hoped for something to happen for more than 40 years …

now I’m getting more hopeful and closer to it, yet it scares me more of it not happening which might make me lose hope forever…

I get emotional fatigued, brain dead, physically exhausted and sometimes just a little too f#cking tired. Just from work... And I know I shouldn't. I only work 4 days a week with 3 days off in a row. I should be happy. But I lack the energy to make solid use of it...

I am going through the exact same things. As I get older, it is hard to change your ways. To me it is pretty much set in stone. So I ignore it until I become exhausted with who I am. Wrung out and put away. I look back at all that but never focus on what I've achieved, which makes me sad. I can truly relate to you. Your story is like mine. Two perfectly imperfect people

I have just accepted who I am. If people do not like it, they can move on.

Just be yourself. Love yourself. You are a nice person!

Just let all that stuff go. Live for
yourself, not others.

Eat, drink, and be merry!

Yeah I feel lots of type of fatigue at different times in life. But I just try to take one day at a time. But Yeah I also feel like things just pass me by as well:(

No, I just go through phases of feeling desperate to get out of here - but knowing that I have nowhere to go doesn't help.

I'm curious... what if I were able to have a relaxed, friendly conversation with your son and I asked him to tell me why he loved his mother so much... what do you think he would tell me?

Baby steps... One at a time...