You are no loser. You are a fighter. I know its hard trying to keep oneness with yourself, especially when so many around you just take and take until you feel like you have nothing left inside.

I will always have to take care of my daughter. She is my priority. If i don't make her the priority who will? At the same time, a lonliness because I know it will just be me. Always. Your fight is an inspiration to me. Please don't ever lose that

Please don't give up. It feels like you are trying to place the blame and shortcomings of everything on yourself. That is not fair to you. When I divorced, my counselor said I could not take any less than 48% and any more than 51% of the blame. It takes two. It seems you understand the concept of you get out what you put in to something. You give your all. Other people many times take the easy way out and give up. They don't put in anywhere near what you do. And that's on them, not you. It also feels like you were not dealt a nice set of cards in life which makes your struggles even harder. But that isn't your fault either. You are strong. You are beautiful- I've seen your picture. You are very smart. You are incredibly determined. All you need is someone with the same mindset as a friend. They will help you past obstacles and together you will be happy. Some don't believe it but everyone deserves a chance at happiness. Friends here and in real life can help validate and give you assurance. But please don't give up. Life is full of surprises. And you have earned the right to be happy. 🤗

I can relate. I usually only skim long posts. I'm sorry to all those whom I have skimmed. This post really hit home with me in a lot of ways.

I am glad you recognize your selfworth is intact because you have sold out our done "Anything for love" I imagine.

But it is detrimental to our free soul and spirit to be loved and to love openly without fear or without limits. I envy others as well sometimes.

I don't know if I'll ever find allele either. Until then there's always sw and cheesecake
Thank you for sharing your deepest

I tread a very similar path. My youngest is now 17 so it gives me the freedom to go out and enjoy some time to myself doing the things that make me happy. It’s hard when all you do is give and get nothing in return.

First off, I thank you for baring yourself to us. Secondly, I can't overlook that despite your proclamation of being a loser you will never give up fighting for your son. Of course the bit where you say you're a loser who won't quit says you have more resilience than most people claim to have but the fact that you won't give up fighting for your son makes you nothing close to a loser in my eyes and in the eyes of many.
Taking into consideration I am a random guy on the internet, and all that comes with that, I want you to know you have my admiration.

Gratitude grows when we shift our focus to those who struggle more than we do.

You write how I feel very eloquently. Please never give up

You and I are so alike it's scary

You might be surprised how many people you just spoke for

My favorite post of the day so far