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I am not sad that I will leave this life in singularity.

Maybe just a bit disappointed that I couldn't explore myself and someone else so intimately. I had a lot to offer.

I am fortunate enough to have an incredible child. We have been through a lot. I have been through and achieved so much, alone. I couldn't find anyone who wanted to grow with us, and at this point, I'm unwilling to give myself to anyone who isn't as strong as I am. Among other oddities about me, I can't fathom a match. At least not an available one, much less one that even knows I exist.

Not that I deserve love more than anyone else. I just know what I'm capable of creating, and it would of been a really beautiful life.

Thing about me is, I'll make anything beautiful. It's not delusional, it's real. You really can find beauty in anything. Including pain, chaos, death. I know from experience, the potential that hides in the shadows.

I can accept my place in the background and still do something extraordinary. Love will always be at the core 🖤

My only fear is that my child will be left alone too. That is why I must find us a community. I must find a way for my kiddo to not live in pain. Over and over life has taken from us. And I didn't always handle it well. I needed help but I learned to survive without it.

And I still found the beauty. I wish that spark to pass on to my child. I have tried. I will try to the end. I will do my absolute best.
akindheart · 61-69, F
i definitely feel your sentiment. i lost my only daughter. my son doesn't speak to me over politics. i will die alone too...but i accept God's will and I am going to be happy despite being alone.
@akindheart I'm sorry for the pain you are feeling. But isn't it uplifting yet humbling to find your peace in your pain?
akindheart · 61-69, F
@MarbleMarvel well i am not in pain but my expectations were different than reality...but yes i have come to grips with it and i am doing well...but thank you!
WillaKissing · 56-60
This is really Beautiful and extremely heart felt by me.

I have had all the same type of losses and challenges even losing my son to suicide, and yet I learned to make peace and then something beautiful of that loss. I too will live alone until I die because I know there is not a woman alive interested in even knowing I exist, and I have come to good grips with that too. I seek my own path and happiness alone.

Good luck and God bless your Journey as well.
Matt85 · 36-40, M
You made me think of this song:

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being · 36-40, F
You're still very young.. maybe not now but perhaps after 2 or even 5 years, life will change..
I think orienting yourself towards a community is a good thing for the time being
@being I'm 40. It's not going to get any better. I'm tired and people are judgemental. I just don't fit with anyone and that's okay.
being · 36-40, F
@MarbleMarvel yes that's okay too. Rest when you can and I can see that let go is the best thing sometimes
40 seems still young to me but I can understand that feeling tired. I'm pretty close to quitting too, but not Life, just the romance race..
@being I know what you mean. It's time to see what else life has to offer. Romance is time consuming lol in wonderful ways. But what to accomplish with that time if we're not destined for it? And I trust in that. You have done so much! You are valuable. Where to go from here. It's exciting 🖤
GeistInTheMachine · 31-35, M
I'm sorry. I almost got engaged once because of this app called Boo.

It didn't take that long, and I am not the best looker or the most wealthy guy either.

Unfortunately my horrible family sabotaged the engagement and my life.

The Boo app is on Android and iPhone. It has a blue ghost logo.

It worked so well for me because it doesn't just match based on looks, but on legitimate psychological science and values. You get from it what you put in.

They have sales pretty often, and it can be quite affordable depending on how you use it.

The free version has limited swipes. But it is still usable just slower.

Godspeed to you and all the best for you and your child.
HobNoblin · 36-40, M
I'm single, I like it this way, I view it as an acomplishment.
smiler2012 · 56-60
@MarbleMarvel 🤔yes it may end this way for you but look at the positives and what you achieved . maybe you are sad about leaving your kid and that is understandable but that is rather unavoidable
Justmeraeagain · 56-60, F
All we can do is our best

 
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