I don't have enough information but best I can say is to not feel guilty, adults shouldn't take their personal life problems out on their kid. I know it's hard not to feel guilty because it makes you feel guilty but you also have to realize that there's something called displaced anger. It's not fair but it does happen and is more of a reflection on the other person than you. But it is made to feel like it's your fault.
I honestly don't know your situation but I know is that displaced anger IS a thing and they shouldn't be taking it out on you if that's what is happening.
My best advice is that sometimes you can't control other people regardless, not even family. There are unfortunately toxic family members. The best thing you can do for yourself is keep moving forward at any cost because you got no choice otherwise. Just do you. Simple advice but you'll waste time worrying about others.
Success is the best revenge, don't let someone else's dysfunction go to you.
It's a serious struggle but unaliving yourself wouldn't be worth it, especially if it goes wrong and you live through it. You just got to find your OWN reasons to live and nobody else's, even if it's purely for spite.
