when i was your age (just a few years ago) i had the worst reputation. I was bullied throughout uni, by people both my classmates, and those senior to me. Somehow i was the talk of town. mainly due to rumors spread by my "friend group". Those girls were toxic af. they made me suicidal. a lot of my borderline traits manifested during my uni era. and it was very hard to even think of being alive to see the next morning. i hated life so much.
i just cut all contact with them when uni ended, including deleting all my socials, and my life has been better since. i took small steps towards securing my future. i'm still taking small steps towards healing. i have a job now, which doesn't pay a lot but at least it means i'm on to somewhere. life is a journey. the only point of life is to not be static and to keep going somewhere.

We’re all here for you and care about you

most people are shit. the more you care for them, the less you'll be happy. Just remember that.

SHUT UP WHINING, go and get some help or do something about it.