Vent or smth

I hate myself so much. I'm so pathetic. Everyday I cry and cry when I get home I have no use. I don't even have friends anymore. I'm no doubt the problem. I got kicked out of 2 friend groups in less than a year. I'm not trying to be toxic. If I could change I would. I hate this life and place. I tried to kill myself so many times even my family think I'm annoying. I'm so useless and pointless. No one cares about me whether I die or not. But for some reason I don't have the guts to kill myself I get bullied and I act like everything is fine. I hate this. I ran out of friends and I'm all alone. I wish I could go back in time. These people spread rumours. I care about what other people think and my reputation. I'm scared I can't tell anyone. I'm so tired.

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Star1 · F

Why did you get kicked outof friends groups

RandomPerson514 · 22-25, F

@Star1 first one was toxic so I didn't really care it was cause I asked too many questions so for the second one I tried so hard for it to be a good friendship. I bought them stuff gave them time but one day they just randomly said that they didn't want to be my friends. They started saying in a public gc with all my classmates " oh you were annoying" shit like that and that really made me emotional. And the thing is that I really cared about them

Star1 · F

@RandomPerson514 Sounds like both groups were toxic!

RandomPerson514 · 22-25, F

@Star1 now that I think about it yeah. And I just checked they are talking shit abt me in the gc. I just want to say ty this made me think whether they were worth it or not

Star1 · F

@RandomPerson514 Please dont check anymore, no good can come of it