Vent or smth

I hate myself so much. I'm so pathetic. Everyday I cry and cry when I get home I have no use. I don't even have friends anymore. I'm no doubt the problem. I got kicked out of 2 friend groups in less than a year. I'm not trying to be toxic. If I could change I would. I hate this life and place. I tried to kill myself so many times even my family think I'm annoying. I'm so useless and pointless. No one cares about me whether I die or not. But for some reason I don't have the guts to kill myself I get bullied and I act like everything is fine. I hate this. I ran out of friends and I'm all alone. I wish I could go back in time. These people spread rumours. I care about what other people think and my reputation. I'm scared I can't tell anyone. I'm so tired.

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assemblingaknob · 26-30, F

when i was your age (just a few years ago) i had the worst reputation. I was bullied throughout uni, by people both my classmates, and those senior to me. Somehow i was the talk of town. mainly due to rumors spread by my "friend group". Those girls were toxic af. they made me suicidal. a lot of my borderline traits manifested during my uni era. and it was very hard to even think of being alive to see the next morning. i hated life so much.
i just cut all contact with them when uni ended, including deleting all my socials, and my life has been better since. i took small steps towards securing my future. i'm still taking small steps towards healing. i have a job now, which doesn't pay a lot but at least it means i'm on to somewhere. life is a journey. the only point of life is to not be static and to keep going somewhere.

Spnk8 · 36-40, M

@assemblingaknob exactly!! Sorry you went through that people can suck sometimes. But im glad things are better for you now! :)

RandomPerson514 · 22-25, F

@assemblingaknob that sounds rough. I'm happy you have a good life now, that gave me alot of motivation for a better future

Sjones13 · 41-45, M

We’re all here for you and care about you

Star1 · F

Why did you get kicked outof friends groups

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Star1 · F

@RandomPerson514 Sounds like both groups were toxic!

RandomPerson514 · 22-25, F

@Star1 now that I think about it yeah. And I just checked they are talking shit abt me in the gc. I just want to say ty this made me think whether they were worth it or not

Star1 · F

@RandomPerson514 Please dont check anymore, no good can come of it

assemblingaknob · 26-30, F

most people are shit. the more you care for them, the less you'll be happy. Just remember that.

RandomPerson514 · 22-25, F

@assemblingaknob thanks <3

Jungleman · M

SHUT UP WHINING, go and get some help or do something about it.

Spnk8 · 36-40, M

@Jungleman you dont have to be a dick dude. This was uncalled for. Not everyone deals with crap the same way.

RandomPerson514 · 22-25, F

@Jungleman this is more of an anonymous vent. You don't have to comment if you don't like this, just ignore it.

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RandomPerson514 · 22-25, F

@Spnk8 tysm 😭😭

Spnk8 · 36-40, M

@RandomPerson514 you're very welcome!! We all need someone still in this life. I care about everyone and if i can help i will!! im here for you eventhough you dont really know me just know you can alwaya pm me or something!

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