I struggle with living/existing sometimes. I hate admitting it but idk what to do about it, even tho there’s nothing wrong..

You are not alone. I feel this everyday. I have one friend I try and reach out to.

The secret is in do you feel that way when your are at your happiest. Think about the happiest you've ever been in your life. Did you feel then that you wanted to die? If so you should consider seeking mental help. Otherwise, its just called self pity. We tend to feel that way when we are overwhelmed or when things aren't going according to plan. We all experience this until the worse passes.

I'm waiting for the Aliens so I don't have to pay taxes.

There is a guy on here that i noticed feels the same way. I don't btw..but i think you might have an underlying form of depression. I am not a professional on that but it is worth a try when you feel hopeless.

Talk to somebody professional

I prefer to sleep.