Not anymore. When its my time its my time. In 2019, I got deathly sick and went through several MRIs and CT scans, finally the doctor at the hospital informed me I had pancreatic cancer and its only found in the last stages and i needed to prepare myself for the worst.
I layed in my hospital bed devastated as I didn't know how to tell my kids and siblings. A week later i was sent to a cancer institute as they needed to do tests. Jaundice had set in as my liver was failing. After i woke up i found out i had a gall stone stuck and not cancer. The cancer doctor told me I would have died in just a couple of days if it hadn't been removed.
Going through that made me realize a lot of things. Getting angry wasn't going to change my situation as everything was out of my control
@LunarOrbit A lot of people tried to get me to sue the hospital even the doctor at the cancer Institute however I looked at it as a blessing and a second chance at life.
Afraid of its timing and maybe its manner. I just want to live a little more and go during my sleep or some good way that doesn't involve lengthy torture.
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Not really. She cancelled our dates too much times before. Said she needs her space, that is about her and not me, I´m in her friendzone. She will come to me when she is ready for. That is being late even if happens right now.
I am with thinkerbell. once i am dead, i am good. well kinda. it is getting there that is the problem. However, i have people waiting for me and i can't wait to wrap my arms around them
How i die, yes lately, but somehow at the same time i get the feeling it's going to be terrible no matter what, and then also at the same time, it's going to happen at some point anyhow and it actually might be not that bad because then I'll finally flee this world; i just can't stand the thought of leaving my children, not seeing them again in this world,, etc etc, VERY scary, but I'll see them and the rest of my family that have gone before me in the end, i pray....
Nah. Nothing really to be afraid of. Not the most popular answer but when you go you will just not exist any longer. Like you were never here to start with. No turning into a ghost and watching everyone mourn. No going to heaven and drinking beer and riding motorcycles. No going to hell and being forced to watch Rosie O'donnell twerk in spandex. Just gone. No pain. No remorse. No regrets. No happiness. No tears. Just gone.
Good question. I hate endings. It's weird to think that someday, I wonot be around and people will be pawing through my shit. I don't believe in an afterlife, but it sure would be nice if there was and it would be better if I could come back and haunt someone.
I am but I'm not. I'm worried now because I have a dog and I would hate to die and leave him behind. But also no because when my dad died he died with a smile on his face so I think that tells me he was at peace.
Not really. I'm old enough at this point that if I didn't wake up tomorrow, I wouldn't have any regrets or feel like I missed out. That said, I hope my time comes many years from now.
@Spleenjugholmy terrified but it has dual emotions for me part of me wants to die now so that I can die with dignity other part of me just wishes I could live forever.
