lostlissa · 36-40, F
When my parents and 3 siblings were killed by a drunk driver. I was 17 and had just graduated from high school. I still think about it everyday. And I have been thru years of counseling for survivor's guilt. I wasn't in the accident. They had gone on vacation and I stayed home to start a modeling job. My dad was a pilot for FedEx so I find it ironic that he died in a car crash.
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whowasthatmaskedman · 70-79, M
I have had times with bills due, $12 in the bank and not knowing where the next cheque was coming from. A time when I saw my twin grandaughters both under 500g born at 25 weeks and knew they werent going to make it (They are 14 now and perfect ) and had to put my wife of 50 years in a home with dementia I could no longer cope with.. Compared to many others I regard myself as fortunate..😷
SwampFlower · 31-35, F
When I first started getting sick and I spent so much on doctors who didn’t take it seriously. Then they finally did and it was too late. I didn’t take that well at all but at least I did get some justice out of a malpractice settlement. Most people don’t even get that.
Bleed · 41-45, F
There’s two for me.
The first was divorcing my alcoholic husband. He blamed me for everything and hated me more than he loved his kids. I was jobless and homeless with 3 small kids. I survived on sugary tea and the kids leftovers for months.
The second time was after 6 1/2 years together my then partner decided he’d mentally destroy me for six months before kicking me and the kids out of our home. I had a job this time and managed to rent somewhere but it was so much harder as I had no fight left in me. I didn’t want to be alive and actually resented my kids for making me stay. The crisis team wanted to section me but I said if I knew my kids would be looked after I’d be gone. My friend’s son killed himself during this time and I remember being so envious of him. Even though I’m better now I can still remember that feeling like it’s always waiting for me. I have so much sympathy for those that have to endure that kind of pain and I wish people were nicer to those that succeed in taking their own lives.
The first was divorcing my alcoholic husband. He blamed me for everything and hated me more than he loved his kids. I was jobless and homeless with 3 small kids. I survived on sugary tea and the kids leftovers for months.
The second time was after 6 1/2 years together my then partner decided he’d mentally destroy me for six months before kicking me and the kids out of our home. I had a job this time and managed to rent somewhere but it was so much harder as I had no fight left in me. I didn’t want to be alive and actually resented my kids for making me stay. The crisis team wanted to section me but I said if I knew my kids would be looked after I’d be gone. My friend’s son killed himself during this time and I remember being so envious of him. Even though I’m better now I can still remember that feeling like it’s always waiting for me. I have so much sympathy for those that have to endure that kind of pain and I wish people were nicer to those that succeed in taking their own lives.
Onryo · 22-25, F
I’d say when my parents were killed but honestly the trauma was so bad I think I was numb for most of that time. The pain since then has been unbearable. I guess the different times I’ve attempted suicide would be the worst, or should I say the times I survived suicide attempts, that moment straight after you know you failed is the lowest feeling you can ever feel. Like even in ending it all I’m a failure and now everyone knows it too
fun4us2b · M
Really when my son was struggling thru his late teens early 20s - I felt like I could lose him at any moment.
He's good now ❤🩹
There's other stuff - reasons I found this place...but I keep to myself...
He's good now ❤🩹
There's other stuff - reasons I found this place...but I keep to myself...
ScreamingFox · 41-45, F
The past five years since I lost my parents. I keep getting hit after hit. Cancer was scary, but it's been so hard to get through things without any support and still raising my son.
It's wearing on me. I'm more tired and in more pain than anyone knows. Because it really doesn't matter.
It's wearing on me. I'm more tired and in more pain than anyone knows. Because it really doesn't matter.
exexec · 70-79, C
I have had lots of challenges, but the most emotionally stressful time was when I was in a very difficult engineering school. Classes from 8 to 6 three days a week, 9 to 5 twice a week, and 9 to 12 on Saturdays. It was the first time in my life that I had to worry about grades. My girlfriend was at another university, dating other guys. I had no money. Thank goodness for my friends who helped me get through it and for my girlfriend who insisted she loved only me.
tobynshorty · 51-55, F
When my dad got hurt at work and was out for a long time. Mom had 5 of us kids to take care of and couldn’t work. Money and food was scarce. I have been hungry and poor.
Pretzel · 70-79, M
the last year of dad's life - having to work and clean his house, do is shopping and other stuff..
glad to have been able to do it - but it was draining
glad to have been able to do it - but it was draining
kodiac · 22-25, M
Landing in foster care at age 4 when my parents died ,stayed in for 14 years ,don't think things could ever get worse than that
DanielsASJ · 36-40, M
@kodiac I am sorry about all of it you went through. But hopefully, slowly and steadily, you are turning into 'the Best' of yourself now.
kodiac · 22-25, M
@DanielsASJ Thank you ,the best therapy i have found is when kind people like you respond .
DanielsASJ · 36-40, M
I can not claim that a particular phase was very rough. In rough phases, I could find happiness. I went out at 18 and I had my best friend with me. Whatever came to me came to him too. So, I was happy with that 😂
MtnManJohn · 61-69, M
I was in a life-threatening accident when I was 28 and lost the use of my legs due to a spinal cord injury.
Lisa82 · 41-45, F
@MtnManJohn life changing. So glad you survived that horrible accident.
MartinTheFirst · 26-30, M
I've had plenty of those, for different reasons: alcoholism, bullying, loneliness, meaninglessness, worthlessness, etc. The worst part took place around ages 13-16 though, thought for sure I'd kill myself, and it was a concoction of all of those things and more. Everything caused that situation, from my family, to the school system, to my friends and enemies, and even myself.
Selah ·
All of it. I've never had a good time. Just made the best of things.
When I had a baby.
CrazyMusicLover · 31-35
Either major surgery and recovery or processing it all years later.
MartinTheFirst · 26-30, M
How about you?
MayorOfCrushtown · M
@MartinTheFirst right after my second divorce. Was living out of my car for awhile. Living off of peanut butter sandwiches and water. Had two jobs but so many bills and child support, I could barely eat. Thankfully I got back on my feet after awhile.
Hairy nipples
Lilnonames · F
@Nunlover she shaved her nipples and you got mad
@Lilnonames I woke up and looked over, she was laying there plucking them 😢