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sometimes I hate that I care about people too much

I'm not a religious person nor do i follow a religion. I think they are all corrupt and have been used (still being used) as a tool to oppress people. However, I do pray for others. I'm walking down the street and I see someone in need. I have the strongest urge to give them a dollar or some food. Yesterday, I saw someone asking for some money. He claimed it was for "food." I went to a local subways restaurant and bought a sandwich for him. Dude started complaining that it had mayonnaise when I gave it to him. So he didn't want the sandwich. Even with that, I had the urge to pray that this person gets the helps he needs to get off the streets. It annoys me that I care for people that don't deserve shit.
empanadas · 31-35, M Pinned Comment
To be the people calling me a judgemental prick or creep, the irony is that I'm not even coming at this from an outside view. I got kicked out of my parents home when I was 17 for doing some really stupid shit. I had to sleep on benches at the park. I only asked for food. Most of the time I got pocket change. Anything people gave me anything, I thanked them. Even if it's something I didn't like to eat. I would still find a way to eat it. I even cried at times. The problem is alot of these homeless you see are not even homeless at all and get food stamps. Basically abusing the system. Meanwhile there are people out there who really are down on their luck. This place disappoints me to no end
calicuz · 56-60, M
@empanadas

A lot of the homeless also have mental dissorders. They need professional help, some even need to be in hospitals.
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WhateverWorks · 36-40
@empanadas I definitely don’t feel like your post was judgement. You’re also right that some of them aren’t homeless. At the same time, it’s not helpful to assume everybody is abusing the system until they do something that proves to you otherwise (like, for all you know, this guy might have an allergy to eggs. You just don’t know).. so not so much for their sake, although that plays a part, but for your own heart. The thought processes calluses it unnecessarily.

I also want add that there’s a difference between someone who is newly homeless versus how you feel after you’ve been homeless for an extended period of time. Someone might assume that the longer you are homeless the more desperate, more in despair you become, but that’s not what happens in a modern society where there are resources to lessen literal death in the streets. It’s a trade off. Humans are also adaptive. Even the ones who have severe illness and addiction also have survival mechanisms that seek out some kind of homeostasis (meaning not that desperation, despair that you felt when you were freshly sleeping on benches). If you’d been forced to be homeless longer (meaning you had no pre-existing resources to get back on your feet ) eventually you would’ve figured out better shelter than the bench, a better way to get food than whatever a stranger hands you, accustomed to various discomforts etc

Lostpoet · M
Aren't you doing the same thing he did? You are rejecting him because he didn't fit the reaction that you wanted from him. i agree with you that if i'm really hungry on the street than i wouldn't give a fck if the sandwich someone gave to me had mayonnaise or not and i'd atleast thank them.

I don't believe in charity like this because it is almost always wasted on the wrong people.

i remember i was given a 50$ gif card to subway by someone i didn't want anything from so i decided to give it to someone else. I was downtown at the library and there was a mom and son that looked homeless just sitting at a table with a bunch of bags around them and i should have given them the 50$ subway card but i felt too shy to go up to them. And i waited until it was getting late and they left. On my way back home i ran into someone trying to sling phone cases next to the traxline and i just asked him if he wanted the gift card and he took it and i bet a hundred dollars that he tried selling that card to someone else for some money to buy whatever he was on.
Lostpoet · M
@empanadas The want to help others shows that you have a good heart. The fact that you got mad because they were negative means you are judgmental. You can't change people you can only accept them for what they are and i hope you never have to experience what it feels like to be on the street. What you did is a good thing don't let my comment on Here affect you negatively.
empanadas · 31-35, M
@Lostpoet tbh people need to be held accountable for not having common curiosity. If someone is being nice to you then you are rude to them as a response then how you do expect to be feel good that you wasted money on someone who didn't really need the food like they claimed? Meanwhile someone actually needs. pretty judgemental to think I'm coming at this from an outside of view
Lostpoet · M
@empanadas
tbh people need to be held accountable for not having common curiosity.

tbh, that's some third reich view point to me.

Can i ask you what you do for a living?
I heard about someone doing something similar. Offering a sandwich to someone on the street and the lady asked him what it was for and he said he thought she wanted food due to the sign she was holding up and she said she didn’t need it she needed booze. 😩 my family and I once tried to give homeless people a bag full of snacks and they didn’t even want to take it for the same reason. 🤷‍♀️ So, now I just don’t have the time. Lol especially in Florida we’re having so many of them at streetlights begging now a lot of them aren’t even homeless it was on the news the other day how a lot of people are just taking advantage and they plan on stopping it some how. I have no issue ignoring them 😬 I literally don’t have the money to give and the time. I never carry cash and I’m always in a rush.
ViciDraco · 36-40, M
@Stark Orlando area. I did not realize you had moved back.
@ViciDraco yeah, I moved back about three years ago (:
I hope you’re staying safe. I haven’t heard much about Orlando with this hurricane but I did hear it was heading towards there. 🤔
ViciDraco · 36-40, M
@Stark I've got no home internet, but everything else is good. ☺️
WaryWitchWandering · 36-40, F
Bc the dollar was for booze or drugs (as you know, which is why you bought him a sandwich).. the food is what he needs but he could care less

It’s hard to be a caring person… but don’t stop
kodiac · 22-25, M
Like they say no good deed goes unpunished. Yeah we are not supposed to expect anything in retun for kindness but to have it thrown back in your face feels like crap. I was homeless at age 15 ,i met a lot of street people some even chose to be homeless . Some were just down on their luck . I have eaten from the trash at fast food places and if someone had given me a dirt sandwich i would have been grateful. 99% of people either ignored me or made fun of me. 1% were like you and they were the ones that showed me not everyone is a self absorbed prick . Hang onto that feeling that you did something good and let go of the rest.
WhateverWorks · 36-40
I feel you. All you can do is go about your life doing nonchalant, good things without expectation. People have problems. They may not react the way we feel they should.

Sometimes what we have to offer isn’t the support people need or want. I’m inclined to agree that if they want money for food because they’re hungry they would take the sandwich. At the same time, i’ve been homeless. When you’re already at rock bottom there’s something additionally dehumanizing about the way people feel your desperation should render you grateful for whatever you get and have no small preferences or desires. You’re just kind of a burden, an animal unworthy of personhood.
SW-User
It is a beautiful thing that you care. Praying for someone does you no harm and I think it sends out really positive vibrations and you don't know how it manifests in their life at some point.
It is never a bad thing to be a compassionate person, even if isn't appreciated in return. The fact you still prayed for him is such an admirable quality. Don't let your big heart harden to the cruelties of this world, and especially not due to any negative feedback here.
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hikikomorii · 31-35
Just because they are homeless it doesnt mean that they have to accept anything given to them. Your mindset is creepy
empanadas · 31-35, M
@hikikomorii honestly I doubt that. If someone is actually in the streets and hungry, the fact someone actually acknowledges them with an act of kindness is showing them, they are human. Not just someone to ignore. There's a sense of entitlement in the people you claim to have been in class for.
WaryWitchWandering · 36-40, F
@hikikomorii in the way you’re acting it’s like I should go up to them with a pen and pad and apron on and ask how they like their steak cooked and wait on them.
@hikikomorii That’s ridiculous so people are just suppose to cater to them as if they’re on a date because they’re homeless and they’re begging ? I think that’s a bit of a selfish mindset to have honestly and instead they should be grateful people are going out of their way to spend their money which they’re not required to in giving them what they’re able to give.

As warywitch mention if anything, I think it’s more humiliating begging on the streets asking for money or as most of the signs I’ve read say “anything helps” and then turning it down because you want something better.
Viper · M
Glad to see you care too 😊

Yeah, I had a co-worker whom supposively did a "study", every time someone asked him for money for food, he offered to take them to a restaurant and pay the bill ...

I think he got 80% "no" response...
WaryWitchWandering · 36-40, F
@Viper most are on the street for addiction… obviously not ALL. Either way it’s sad… if you’re begging, you’d think food and water would be a first on your list.
Gangstress · 41-45, F
You're only human after all
Its probably a thought that cross others minds.
You dont have to be religious to want hope for someone either
Never hate that bro. There's a global shortage of compassion and an excess of selfishness
Lilymoon · F
Aww you're a good guy.... I always knew that underneath it all. Don't change.
empanadas · 31-35, M
@Lilymoon no
calicuz · 56-60, M
Don't get annoyed, you're a good person for caring about your fellow man.
well said. i have many of those same feelings.
smiler2012 · 56-60
{@tacobell] you seem a very genuine warm kind hearted person so 👍keep up good samaritian work though you are not religious . 😆next time you might find some poor soul who does not look a gift horse in the mouth and accepts your kind charity
SW-User
Yeah feels bad when you try to help me and they're arrogant. But that's on them, not you.
SW-User
Give that sandwich to me !
TheRascallyOne · 31-35, M
iamonfire696 · 41-45, F
You are a good man 💖

 
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