sometimes I hate that I care about people too much

I'm not a religious person nor do i follow a religion. I think they are all corrupt and have been used (still being used) as a tool to oppress people. However, I do pray for others. I'm walking down the street and I see someone in need. I have the strongest urge to give them a dollar or some food. Yesterday, I saw someone asking for some money. He claimed it was for "food." I went to a local subways restaurant and bought a sandwich for him. Dude started complaining that it had mayonnaise when I gave it to him. So he didn't want the sandwich. Even with that, I had the urge to pray that this person gets the helps he needs to get off the streets. It annoys me that I care for people that don't deserve shit.

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kodiac · 22-25, M

Like they say no good deed goes unpunished. Yeah we are not supposed to expect anything in retun for kindness but to have it thrown back in your face feels like crap. I was homeless at age 15 ,i met a lot of street people some even chose to be homeless . Some were just down on their luck . I have eaten from the trash at fast food places and if someone had given me a dirt sandwich i would have been grateful. 99% of people either ignored me or made fun of me. 1% were like you and they were the ones that showed me not everyone is a self absorbed prick . Hang onto that feeling that you did something good and let go of the rest.