Trying to find meaning in a life that has no meaning. Not sure where to turn. Considered going south for a job that would be more fun with no customer

Take baby steps. First, you must get off the drugs. It’s holding you back. I’m not going to tell you life is roses and rainbows because it’s not. It’s hard! Damn hard for many of us. I honestly don’t know how I’m still here. I should have topped myself years ago, but there was always a thread to hold onto. I don’t know what your thread is, but it could be just a hope in a better tomorrow. It won’t be easy. It may be like a roller coaster, but keep taking one step at a time to make your life today, a tiny bit better than it was yesterday. Here is me giving you advice, and my heart is broken. You have one thing I don’t have ... time and youth. Please take advantage of this. God bless. 🙏

One of the hardest things about changing is breaking through that hopeless feeling. Consider that you are not the only one who has gone through a funky depression and "what's the use" feeling. People have gotten out of it and you can too. But you have to want it. Yup, getting off the drugs is the first thing. Before that is accepting it's kicked your butt and you can't do it alone. Reach out to 12-step groups. It will feel weird at first but you are not unique even though you may think you are.

Aboo - I read the titles of your posts.
You have the attention span of a gnat.
If you are serious about joining society, you are going to have to get off drugs.

Well if you're open to travelling you can do those tourist jobs ik ppl from my old school who have so much fun through all that, but yeah personally i can relate bc I'm too old now as my youth (17-21) is over and im too washed up and old to do anything new so whats the point

I stopped looking for meaning in life and started looking for stuff to do. Still suicidal, nowhere near as often

Too old? You’re still young

Stop smoking and go have fun with that extra money