Trying to find meaning in a life that has no meaning. Not sure where to turn. Considered going south for a job that would be more fun with no customer

Take baby steps. First, you must get off the drugs. It’s holding you back. I’m not going to tell you life is roses and rainbows because it’s not. It’s hard! Damn hard for many of us. I honestly don’t know how I’m still here. I should have topped myself years ago, but there was always a thread to hold onto. I don’t know what your thread is, but it could be just a hope in a better tomorrow. It won’t be easy. It may be like a roller coaster, but keep taking one step at a time to make your life today, a tiny bit better than it was yesterday. Here is me giving you advice, and my heart is broken. You have one thing I don’t have ... time and youth. Please take advantage of this. God bless. 🙏