Trying to find meaning in a life that has no meaning. Not sure where to turn. Considered going south for a job that would be more fun with no customer

service interaction, but feeling like I'm too old for the work. It would only be seasonal any way. Can't pass a drug test, don't know what to do with myself. So I slowly commit suicide smoking cigarettes for a painful death. What's the point?

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Justafantasy · M

I stopped looking for meaning in life and started looking for stuff to do. Still suicidal, nowhere near as often

MrAboo · 36-40, M

@Justafantasy I go to work and spend a good portion of the day assisting customers or working in the back and dropping everything I’m doing to help customers who don’t really care what’s going on in your mind. Can’t really afford to go out and do stuff. There’s nothing I can do around my apartment like garden or tend to animals like I used to do.

Justafantasy · M

@MrAboo perfect age to take up skateboarding