Trying to find meaning in a life that has no meaning. Not sure where to turn. Considered going south for a job that would be more fun with no customer

service interaction, but feeling like I'm too old for the work. It would only be seasonal any way. Can't pass a drug test, don't know what to do with myself. So I slowly commit suicide smoking cigarettes for a painful death. What's the point?

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rfatoday · 70-79, M

One of the hardest things about changing is breaking through that hopeless feeling. Consider that you are not the only one who has gone through a funky depression and "what's the use" feeling. People have gotten out of it and you can too. But you have to want it. Yup, getting off the drugs is the first thing. Before that is accepting it's kicked your butt and you can't do it alone. Reach out to 12-step groups. It will feel weird at first but you are not unique even though you may think you are.

Budwick · 70-79, M

@rfatoday 12 step group good advice.

MrAboo · 36-40, M

@rfatoday 12 step programs for smoking weed?