I keep having dreams where I am a woman

I (22M) am engaged to the love of my life (22F). We’ve been together for almost 5 years getting married in December. About year 2 of our relationship, during a late night conversation I let my now fiancé know that as a kid I use to want to be a girl, but I didn’t feel that anymore. Shortly after that, we began experimenting with me and started slowly cross dressing. Fast forward to now and I have almost a complete wardrobe of woman’s clothing at my disposal. All of this has awaken that feeling I had as a child. I believe I want to be a woman. (I’ve always hated men. Like I’ve always hated myself because men are disgusting. I just couldn’t peice together why). Recently, I’ve only had dreams where I was a fully transitioned woman, post op, everything. My fiancé and I are still together in these dreams and are starting a family using sperm I donated pre transition. When dreaming I don’t want to wake up, because it’s the life I wish I could have. I don’t know what to do about my life anymore. I’ve mentioned transitioning and I’m sure it’ll destroy my marriage, so I’m just sleeping more and living my best life through my sleep.

There was no point to this post other than to just dump my mind and feelings.

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Iwantyourhotwife · 22-25

[quote]I’ve always hated men. Like I’ve always hated myself because men are disgusting. I just couldn’t peice together why[/quote]
This to me just sounds like the post-feminist, female empowerment movement's throwing this phrase that men are disgusting pigs/dogs against the wall til it sticks. It was a very common narrative, considering we're around the same age range. It was at a very vulnerable time for it to sit and rest in the mind of a child as a society.

I'm saying this bro to bro, this is something people will not talk about, mention, or deal with, as real as it was and sometimes these messages can deeply penetrate our minds and manifest as sudden feelings and beliefs we cannot explain because we never contested or thought about the idea and why we feel as such. If that's not it, I'm sure it could be a variety of different things

I get the feelings you're talking about but you have to seek the origin when you don't even know who put that idea in your head, or what. I also had a phase like that too when I was younger but I outgrew those feelings and moved on with my life. You can feed into the feelings that you want to grow. I suggest realizing you got more control than you think and that following your feelings is not appropriate as they value or offer nothing to truth and purpose.

If this was displeasing, let me know. Because I just don't want you self-hating. However, just have a thought about this and let me know what you think

Cosmicmicrowave · 18-21, M

@Iwantyourhotwife I hate some feminists because they see themselves as better than everyone else
I mean women empowerment I have no problem with it is only when they start to view themselves better than everyone else then I start to get pissed

Iwantyourhotwife · 22-25

@Cosmicmicrowave I have issues with empowerment. Remember that empowerment always leads to that superiority complex you mentioned. If the aim is power, then you'll always end up feeling bigger, more in control, more precious, more deserving when you start to feel empowered.

To feel well served by justice and to have a positive, appreciable societal image is totally different than feeling [b]empowered[/b]. I think we should not seek any empowerment movements [feminism, red pill, etc.] but rather seek appropriacy, justice, equity, righteous/balanced equality, and the likes.

The fallacy within empowerment is the concept of encroachment. You will see the sneak that "rights" will start to always continue to push up and forwards to. Remember if the goal is power, then the aim will always be more power. You will see how hard it will be to relinquish any power that they may possess that is used for injustice. And this goes for any ideology

Cosmicmicrowave · 18-21, M

@Iwantyourhotwife I seek to be empowered and yet I still see everyone as equal to me, I only seek it for my own needs

jimjim1969 · M

So you still cross dress?

NomadLiving · 22-25, M

@jimjim1969 yes and no. I do, but not as frequently because I’m trying really hard to move on but it’s hard cause I feel more myself when I do

jimjim1969 · M

@NomadLiving I don't think a hidden want and need is something you can suppress. It will always be there. The longer denied ,the more you will want it.

bookerdana · M

I think you need to speak to your fiance before the wedding so her choice is free and knowledgeable.

Cosmicmicrowave · 18-21, M

it is good to talk about feelings

Greyjedi · M

Maybe you were in a past life.

Human1000 · M

So does 75% of SW.

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