I keep having dreams where I am a woman

I (22M) am engaged to the love of my life (22F). We’ve been together for almost 5 years getting married in December. About year 2 of our relationship, during a late night conversation I let my now fiancé know that as a kid I use to want to be a girl, but I didn’t feel that anymore. Shortly after that, we began experimenting with me and started slowly cross dressing. Fast forward to now and I have almost a complete wardrobe of woman’s clothing at my disposal. All of this has awaken that feeling I had as a child. I believe I want to be a woman. (I’ve always hated men. Like I’ve always hated myself because men are disgusting. I just couldn’t peice together why). Recently, I’ve only had dreams where I was a fully transitioned woman, post op, everything. My fiancé and I are still together in these dreams and are starting a family using sperm I donated pre transition. When dreaming I don’t want to wake up, because it’s the life I wish I could have. I don’t know what to do about my life anymore. I’ve mentioned transitioning and I’m sure it’ll destroy my marriage, so I’m just sleeping more and living my best life through my sleep.

There was no point to this post other than to just dump my mind and feelings.