So since I was last here in SW, I got a new MRI

@FlowersNButterflies The laws are so crazy and they are going to get far worse if the Republicans get anymore power than they already have.

@Pitchblue I absolutely agree. But I am NOT above ignoring the laws if they cause me harm. I am not a "good person" in that way. Republicans are among the reason I am glad I am old and sick. And leaving the world soon. I don't want to live in a republican society. I believe they are evil and corrupt, and offer nothing good to the world.

@hartfire You are a thinker, and that is good. I have been a member of Exit International for years.

I have taken those actions years ago. I am well documented, not that I think it will matter.

@melbeacher And hope we make the right choice before a sudden exacerbation takes the choice away…

@Notsimilar Much mental anguish, know the risks and the lack of good future.

@FlowersNButterflies [b]hugs[/b] 🌻💐

@Notsimilar Thank you. I adore kindness!

@BackyardShaman Yes! But the crazies call that murder. It isn't. It is compassion and kindness, like what we do for our animals, but society doesn't do for us.

But "last days" is the kink in your position, no offense intended.

Maybe a better description than last days is on hospice, unable to eat walk or think, in serious pain all the time and on heavy pain meds.@FlowersNButterflies

@BackyardShaman Does not work that way in dementia. No doctor can affirm an expected time of death. In my illness, we can survive miserably for years in a most horrifying state of existence without hope.

Something like cancer is more easily understood - a cancer patient exhausts all possible treatments, and then the doctors know the person will die soon, as the disease is so documented. Then they are willing to help a person die.

@Penny To be off the planet. My condition often gives us sudden death from heart rhythm disorder and while I have the documented heart condition that is common in this illness, no guarantees.

There really are things much worse than death.

I have lost friends younger than I; diabetic complications at 56, breast cancer at 54, heart attack at 60. Having outlived them, I can't whine about dying in my 60's.

@FlowersNButterflies well, in this day and age, space travel is possible. i don thow much it costs though lol

@Penny I know you are only joking, but to me as a multidimensional reincarnationist, it is not about two externals, but rather about an external and an internal. The soul versus the body… one is temporary and the other is an eternal expansion of existence.

@Pitchblue Republicans are brutal, uncaring. I agree with you. I see no reason to stick around for my money to enrich a corporation, it is a factor. People in my situation facing what we are are forced to sacrifice some of our life span just to be able to have the mental capacity to prevent much suffering.

@SW-User Speculation. Doctors come to your home through hospice, or you go to Dignitas in Switzerland (very expensive and most can't afford it).

Additionally, I think it is wrong to traumatize others with your passing.

https://afsp.org/suicide-statistics/

@FlowersNButterflies Wouldn't it be better to spend that money on something else? What about family?

Either way people who care will be traumatized. If it was explained to them I'm sure they'd understand.

@SW-User No, it is okay to spend money on oneself, especially at the end of life. People who can say good-bye are less traumatized than those who experience a sudden ripping away. And people who love you don't want you to suffer, and don't demand that you do things as they think they would do them were they in your situation.

My disease no profit organization is my beneficiary and I trust them to spend the money to help others with my illness.

@Barny52 I do, too. Death is natural, yet so many fear it! But I would prefer my body make the decision for me!

@smileylovesgaming That made me giggle! People die without clearing their bucket lists, every day!

@FlowersNButterflies I'm glad you had a giggle. You sound very honest and courageous. I hope your husband won't mind my saying I love you. I wish you the best possible life quality and the most desirable, peaceful end.

When people speak of bucket lists I always hear Nana Mouskouri singing the line "[i]and not be defeated by yesterday's dreams.[/i]" I've had to apply that advice to many of my own dreams, and it's strangely comforting. Here's something I already quoted elsewhere but I'll repeat; perhaps you'll like it:

[i]"[c=800000]In our later years, we pull in the outposts.

At ten, fantasy drives an exploring module around the moon; at twenty the Trans-Siberian Railway or hunkering down to help natives in Mindanao; at thirty a year off in Tuscany or Tahiti. We station a couple of scouts at the perimeter of the empire - geographical and also intellectual. We shall take music lessons, learn Spanish dance, paint on a houseboat, read Proust, Gibson and Cervantes, open a restaurant, write a movie script or a detective novel, study Chinese, play the commodities markets. We begin to send a few more troops to these outposts, visit them, dwell there. We gather clippings, keep notes and addresses, mark possible future dates in the calendar. Then, as years pass, we begin to call the troops home one by one. With lingering nostalgia we abandon them to the sands and the wind. traceless fantasies. Some vanish without yearnings, more likely with amazement that they once seemed viable parts of the empire. Pulling in the outposts is simply calling home the possibilities and dropping in to where you are, your place.[/c][/i]"

@FlowersNButterflies if I knew I would die in a few years I would sell my house and travel the world till I die.

@SW-User It can be legal and still not allowed. The catch is that a person requesting euthanasia needs a medical source to agree the person is within the last 6 or 12 months of a natural death - and that weird standard doesn't work with dementia.

@samueltyler2 NOT what I asked.

@samueltyler2 I am ordained in metaphysics, giggle about it, think religion is evil, have a documented high IQ in an average thinker world. I do ask others their opinion, for multiple reasons. I seek comfort.

@Jackaloftheazuresand I do too, but the actual act gives me creeps. It is genetic, and one of my cousins with it did leave the planet. Sad that we can't get physician assistance. People on death row can. I think we can't, due to religionists and their whacky theories. Running society, and badly, too.

@FlowersNButterflies Why is it creepy to you?

@Spoiledbrat Diagnosis is not the issue, but it is https://healthjade.net/cadasil/

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