4th day... but here is the relapse.

I feel awful today. (And all my toxic thoughts are rushing to my mind like a flood)

I left work later than other workers... and I am still finishing at home.
What is wrong with me?
I tried everything.
New methods of organizing.

My friend at work tells me I give more efforts than them and work harder that's why I stay late. I can hardly believe her and I keep blaming myself.

I have no idea what to think of me...

I might have become slower at work because depression and anxiety are catching up to me due to the switch of cycles in my bp2... but not that much !

I don't know what to think anymore. Now I have constructed this idea in my head that I've become slow and I'm afraid if I keep thinking about it too much I might get worse.

People are dealing with worse and here I am getting myself worked up like this for this. Damn.

Ps: be kind in your response if you are willing to respond, I know this all seems like exageration but it is really getting to me.