Sometimes I feel like I am an asshole.

Whats is that she dislikes about how you are now? Your need to be with others or that you don't have feelings for her or what. Or simply the "tittle" of relationship??
And you say you don't remember how it happened the you ended up in bed 😂😂😂😂😂 innocent child??

Seems quite simple, if can't be normal friends or enjoy what you have already it's better to drift away. Or just talk rarely without needing to see each other, like kinda distant, but looks you like her too or not??

People really suck.

If there will be goodbye, make it quick and as soon as possible.

Time is precious, same for love.

It’s good that you’re willing to examine the situation and aware of the cycle. That said, maybe you guys need to decide to only be friends in public for quite a while. You guys have been in a certain Situationship mode for sometime. Where to change that dynamic you need to avoid all situations where you can slip back into dating behaviors it’s not inviting her over to your place anymore make it a private setting three guys might be tempted to go back into old habits. You gotta be more mindful of not being in close proximity when you hang out. When people date they’re much more touchy and close to each other then when you are just friends. You need to literally go back to the Friendzone. Meme is not texting each other so much Texting/calling each other anymore.

If You guys can’t do that then you need to take ‘zero contact space’ from the actual friendship for a while so that both of you have an opportunity to explore other connections. right now she’s hyper focused on you, hoping you will change your mind, continuously pulled back into the connection and potential of you.. The dopamine is you.

I’ve had FWB’s, & it only really works when no feelings develop & you just both accept things for what they are. I’ve had to be honest with some men & say I don’t see things going beyond FWB’s, & it feels shitty when you know you’ve hurt someone’s feelings.

Maybe a friendship at this point won’t work, so you’ll just have to cut ties with her altogether.

You have clearly expressed that this current relationship is causing "Guilt and feeling bad" These feelings can only lead to eventual resentment and a sense of anger. I think it's time to honestly lay everything on the line or not only will you two NOT have a basic friendship, you may become bitter enemies.

Having the honest self-awareness to even see this clearly is an amazing strength and is the starting point for solving the problem; you can't fix what you don't acknowledge.

it's not easy, you're right. been through similar and have no useful advice, sorry.

i'm very sorry to hear...

Why can you not be in a committed relationship?

Hey would you like to chat? I'm pretty bored