Sometimes I feel like I am an asshole.

Well, I think people are right, and nothing good comes from friends with benefits, and someone is eventually hurt. Apparently, she wants something more than that, and I cannot be in a relationship right now. She knows that, but I guess it's not that easy for either of us to be normal friends at this point.

A while ago, she said we have to be normal friends, and I agreed since I am starting to feel bad and guilty because of how she feels and what she wants from us. She came to my place some days ago to watch a movie together, but the next thing I knew, we were in bed. I don't even remember how it happened.

It's becoming like a cycle. There is some distance between us for some time, but we end up being FWB again after a while. I want it to stop. But I think the only way is we stop being friends, and it's not that easy.