Why do most people try to keep me away from my mother?

@EmptyGirl2001 completely understand you.

@EmptyGirl2001 I understand. But that wasn’t in the cards, unfortunately. Were there others in your family who stepped up, aunts, grandmother, etc. ? I don’t know how old you are, but part of growing up is seeing things for what they are. You can’t make her into the loving mother you deserved, that isn’t who she is. Your choices are accepting her, faults and all, with your eyes open (while protecting your heart) or if she’s too toxic, putting distance between you.

Expecting her to change risks your continuing to be disappointed and heartbroken. Envying your friends and wishing for what isn’t, wastes your time. And life is just too short.
Take another look at the people who were there and tried to protect you from the reality of the woman who gave birth to you and bailed.

In one of your posts you mention that she admitted why she left. So
you know the truth from her own mouth. Doesn’t necessarily make her a bad person, just a very weak and irresponsible one. She gave you your life, but it’s yours now, and you can choose not to let her destroy it. Honestly, you might consider counseling to make peace with this and put things in perspective. It couldn’t hurt. 🙁