Wow.. i’m sorry to hear all that 😐 my dad is super religious but i got pregnant at 20 when i ran away to tx to see a guy online (went out with 3 other guys instead there) and then left to go home when my bf/fiancé wanted to chase other women.. i never saw him again when i went home my family didn't want me talking to him and then my dad frowned on premarital sex and unwed mothers and forced me to do hard labor.. i lost the pregnancy and almost bleed to death but my mom’s friend took me to the hospital.. i tried to run back to my ex bf/fiancé but met my hub instead and got married … but i would always imagine my non existent kid growing up and it took me 3 three years to get over my ex even tho i was only with him a few months..

Wow i'm so sorry. To answer your question about how it affects you, truthfully it depends on how strong you are. I had this conversation with my best friend about 2 nights ago. I saw my 1st murder at 9 years old. My oldest brother, every single one of his friends were murdered. EVERY single one. 16 in all. We were going to funerals literally once a month. So i was telling my friend that i'm surprised that i'm not messed up or have any mental issues or even taken drugs from the things that i have seen and went through growing up i have no idea honestly how i was able to come out unscathed by it all. Its like it followed me for a while. I went to college attended my 1st and last football game ever because a childhood friend was killed right in front of me a guy walked up behind him and shot him in the back of the head he was 2 rows below me in the bleachers and i watched it happen. I was so proud of him because he made it out and I thought that going to college we had escaped it but not even there was safe.

Family isn’t really anything but a concept to me. I lived it, but there was no love. I was just taught to excel, primarily by a narcissistic mother.

Fast forward to adulthood, I was disowned and disinherited. Somehow, introspection has led to forgiveness (albeit posthumously) which in turn has led to deep inner happiness.

Like any struggle, you’ve got to grasp the silver lining. You don’t have to love your family. You do have to love yourself.

I am very sorry that you were born in irresponsible family which they used you as a child for getting benefits.

I have never taken everything that belong to my son. He got benefits from the government when he was a child and I saved the money into a bank for him.

Mine was.. awful I won’t go into details publicly but if you want to message me I will tell you but it made me know what I don’t want

Bless your heart ❤. I'm ao sorry that you had to experience that and not have a childhood. It just breaks my heart to hear stories like this. You deserved better. 🫂

You had a lot on your plate at a time when life should have been carefree and happy. It sounds like you had a rough ride.

I was the eleventh child the only time anyone ever even acknowledged my presence was when they needed something. I don't talk to anyone in my family either.

That's a tough life... But it did make you stronger

I don't want to think about it.

You did what you were suppose to do because there was nobody else in the family who could do what you did. You fulfilled that role and now it's over. It's behind you and never to be repeated. From here on in, life should be all about you, not about somebody else!

🫂🫂🫂🫂

My thought is: you’ve always had to take care of people, so you’re active and hard-working, this will serve you well in life

Damn so sorry