Life is what you make of it

I raised my son without his dad in the picture by choice, his dad and I agreed , he wanted me to get an abortion and I refused, so he split and I did it alone, while sometimes I felt guilty about it, he always had a male figure in his life until my dad died and he turned out fine, he knows who his dad is now but said he has no interest in a relationship with him .
I rarely think of his dad, but now that my son is engaged I just thought he might want him there, he doesn't.

His birthday is coming up and i have the feels

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