My Alcohol Addiction

[b]I don't drink every day.[/b]

I typically drink 4 to 5 beers, when I do drink. These are each 1.15 liters, and contain 4.7 percent alcohol each. There is 460 calories in each beer.

I tried switching to stronger alcohol, but bottomed a liter of vodka, and still craved more, one evening.

This last month's time, I've been doing well, only drinknig about once a week. I would typically drink 2 to 3 times a week in the past.

The way I drink does not sound like the way of a typical alcoholic, but it is very dangerous I believe, and I do lack control. I have gotten chronic pancreatitis, along with other physical health issues, due to my poor drinking habits over time. I can not stop drinking once I start.

I started drinking when I was 13 years old, and started drinking by myself when I was 18 years old (and moved out of my parents place, since I became an adult).

In the beginning, I didn't drink much in one evening, but the amount grew over time, and I couldn't keep a job, mainly due to hangovers, even though I got many offers. I ended up in the hospital multiple times, and got injected with B-vitamins.

I have astmatic bronchitis, and can't control how much I smoke during drinking, no matter how hard I try. The drinking makes my lifestyle more docile due to constant hangovers, and I end up smoking too much whilst sitting in front of a computer screen.

You may not realize it, but one can have a serious addiction on something as "soft" as beer. You may not realize it, but often when I am writing here, and I seem clear, I am heavily under the influence of alcohol, and my words do not portray my true self at all.